I had my ultrasound this morning…they found an empty gestational sac, technical term blighted ovum. I knew as soon as I saw it on the ultrasound what the doctor was going to tell me. It doesn’t take a genius to see that there was nothing inside the sac. I was hoping I was wrong, but the longer she examined it without saying anything, the more I knew I was right.
The doctor said that I had three choices, 1) I could miscarry naturally, 2) they could give me medication that would help things along, or 3) have an operation to remove the gestational sac. I opted for a natural miscarriage. I don’t want to deal with any more medication or procedures right now. I have to go in for another ultrasound next week, I guess to make sure that everything is gone after the miscarriage.
I’ve been crying off an on ever since we found out. Just when I feel like I have everything under control, I start to cry again. Although I knew this was a possibility, I was hoping that I would be one of the lucky ones. So much for that.
I’m going to take a break from blogging for a while over the holidays. I’m going to see my family in California for Christmas, so hopefully being around them will help me get through this.